The Second Test Day !! (13.11.2011)

Finally my Second Test day came. I woke up with restorative mood, after breakfast I took my fathers wishes and head on to the test center "the one which I've taken my first test". Again I met couple of students who were waiting for the administrator, I tried to have a talk with them (of course in English). Whenever I go to take this test I've always made good friends "the friends whom I am in contact with, up until now" All of them are adroit and sagacious on their fields. It's always good to have friends if they are willing to take the challenge of friendship.
One interesting situation occurred at the test center, when all candidates gathered inside the room there occurred some technical problems with computers. Many people say that "13" number is the luckiest number LOL.The test had to start at 9 am but when the problem solved the time was about 10:30 am and we waited more than 1,5 hour. Our lucky day began with marred computers and everyone over there laughed upon the guy who really believed that this was true. =)
So Test started, again I tackled with the reading section (the reading sections always has been toughest section of all time on TOEFL, depends on the person though) the texts were abstruse as usual, dealing with biological, chemical and with some onerous words was sort of difficult for me because TOEFL Reading is all about "Comprehension". 
After Reading, the listening section came through. As long as I learned how to handle the listening section it was more understandable and easier than the first time. Speaking section also went good, this time I didn't confuse and also managed to finish my talk on time "Sigh I relieved". However the writing section was still tougher for me, especially Integrated section. I couldn't understand the first section but I hoped I did well on the Independent section.
Test finished at 2:30 pm, I went out to relieve but still my mind was boiling.
During the 10 minutes break after Listening, I talked with the other people who were taking the test. There was a girl who tried test 1 year ago and got 89 and now came to take her second. According to her she also has taken SAT more than 4 times. She says: TOEFL is nothing in front of SAT, even though the reading section (the second which has always challenged me up until now) I found it fascinating.
When the test finished I exchanged my facebook address with her and decided to keep in touch through this website. It was sincerely nice to make friends!
So Challenge is over, I headed my way to home when I came back I got terrible headache and spent whole of my day with relaxing.

The day before Second Test !!

So my second preparation lasted for 2 months. I tried to learn a lot from the books I had and the programs one of my korean friend girl gave to practice with. I sincerely thank to one of my friends whom I acquainted at the first test center because that was the only girl who sincerely helped me to gain some books to work on my TOEFL. The day before the test I tried to motivate and inspire myself through some of the philosophical notes I took from my success books. So jot down one phrase on my teaching board and tried to stay in a positive attitude, it says; " Everything effects, Everything else". Then I said to myself; "No matter what score I get I am still willing to learn from this experience, whether I fail or succeed again I am able to handle my emotions and stay positive as all those will matter for my future success".
My friend asked if I'm confident enough to attain my poised objective this time but I knew that I wouldn't be able to reach 100 this time again due to I was aware of my pathetic score, hence, I hoped my hard works would pay off. So portend thoughts came true after while because there is someone wisely said "If you think you win, you will win, if you think you fail you will surely fail"

Practice 1...

During these practice times I tried to decoy several types of strategies in order to hone my mediocre skill, reading plethora of books to reciting abstruse hieroglyphics. I tried to work on my listen part as much as I could, practiced it with different type of tapes and programs...
Mostly I used software "Hackers TOEFL IBT <Listening>" which you can set up on your computer and use it in a way you want to!!
Also I used "Longman IBT" software in order to buttress my listening section, as much as I'm concerned it did influenced on me, and helped me a lot to soar my score. At the beginning everything I marked on seemed wrong, and every answer choices I chose appeared mistaken. I couldn't understand it's challenge, it seemed sort of labyrinthine and onerous because when I was practicing it I was sort of certain that I was choosing right answer but the answers I chose always had been wrong.
However I didn't give up, I tried to understand every detail from the lectures and conversations. Conversations are not that knotty as lectures, because lectures contain plethora of details that you have to catch logically its expression. On the other hand enunciation play big role, because listening section contains of different pronunciations as British and American, so be ready additionally for both of them.
I expect that preparing for this sort of exams craves plenty effort, especially you have to use euphemism to seize what you want, or with languish brain you can never accomplish something well.
When I was preparing for my poised objective I couldn't find enough energy to follow through because at the same time I had to work and study. In my first preparation I took 2 weeks to work on this task, but definitely I didn't improve anything by practicing online courses. Of course they could familiarize you to optional directions of TOEFL but if you do not learn strategies and what to do something when you face knotty logical questions, it doesn't really help you to achieve your poised objective but could be noxious to spend your time wisely. Additionally I tried to learn plethora of academic words and searched for strategies of how to head right direction. Those things made me lethargic enough that I even couldn't get up early in the morning, I spend more than 2-3 hours a day BUT it was not enough.
When I was preparing for my second test I used several profound books which helped more to soar my mediocre skills, here you go;

  

 

Second Decision!

Finally after receiving my score I decided to perpetuate my process. I couldn't be braggart with my result instead I covert it from my friends for a while. My failure thwarted me to be exemplary for my students and friends, but I wasn't so lachrymose to face my barrier, so I had to handle it on time or it would be too late for me to alibi or tirade of what I had to do.
I ruminated carefully and decided to retake my second TOEFL in 2 months. But this time I used another strategy to achieve my poised objective. However I am able to say that every experiences I had faced were creditable enough that challenged me in pragmatic pathway to make my next progress laudable.
I couldn't abrogate what my Mom said, so it was true though. I'm not the person who quits the game that easily or who gives up so fast. I took immediate actions as becoming tenacious for my next preparation.
Nevertheless after this my first experiences I lost my belief to trust in myself with finger crossed. It really did influence on me, because whenever I try to do something I never expect something extra instead of the ways that I have passed on. It was not abstruse to realize why I got this score because I knew what I did, so I did believe that it is my pathetic error. Even I couldn't express strong adulation for my result I knew I had to do something more. BUT I didn't know, I didn't know that the way I kept would led to nullify all I hoped and desired.
I speak in English for more than 4 years, but I still feel some tenuous parts where I gotta work hardly on.
I'm not gonna give plethora of exegesis or linger my speech too long of I have felt, so now let's just dive into my second preparation time.
I will try to give more information as much as I could remember. (So second challenge accepted)

Finally I received my result!

In this 2 weeks I was tentative about my answer, because I didn't know how was it going to be.
Finally at the end of those 2 weeks I received my online score.

I got "45" out of "120" (What a pathetic) :'(

Reading:   8  out of 30

Listening: 3  out of 30 (I think I kicked the most lowest score on this section) 

Speaking: 19 out of 30

Writing:   15 out of 30

Frankly, it didn't make me lachrymose or livid, instead I laughed on my result. I think it's because I was lax enough to face poignant score whereas I had to be aware that this drastically could impact or nullify every future actions of mine.
My Mom suggested me to retake this test in 2 months again. So my ambiguity thwarted me of what I really ought to do. Hence, Mom gave creditable advice to perpetuate my process.... This is something I'm always grateful and plaudit about.
However, it was an eye-opening experience for me, I didn't expect that result from my English because I was credulous enough to believe that my english deserves more than that. I was iconoclast for my score and I started to blame those who made judgement of my english, stood as plaintiff as someone who is completely adamant for that ignominious answer.
Blatantly, everybody can be as hidebound as I was if the situation heads in way that you're not predicted about. Nevertheless I believe this failure experience will teach and burgeon covert miracles that you have never discovered before.
I cannot be iconoclast for my failure it could teach me something valuable in the future.
"People say that success gives a chance to grow whereas failure to destroy" In my opinion failure only doesn't teach something but it burgeons a person mentally and emotionally sturdy.
This is the topic I observed by my students and the one I came up to spread out.
So, let's continue.
I was insensitive of my score because the voucher I awarded didn't taste as envenom as I was concerned because this was something I got out of nothing, indeed I applied and had had conversation with counsuler but I had to do something more in order to appreciate my discipline.
Well, I didn't care because I passed this test for free but I was mediocre to realize that I had spent plethora of time, and the is something I had to care about - not a money. (Ah obtuse Zulayla)
So my journey perpetuated by the advice I received from my mother. She suggested to not be torpid and continue my process until I reach the poised target that I aided on. Well my ephemeral obstreperous tirade had to obsolete if I really want to achieve my goal. Sagaciously I decided to not give up....

Now real journey begins......

Waiting for my result!

Finally, right after I have passed my first TOEFL it was the time to wait for my result.
I had to start my work though, I was about to begin my teaching process of English. Frankly I wasn't pragmatist on this area, since I had worked on myself hardly I was almost certain that I would succeed.
I gathered about 40 people who would liked to join my classes, but you never know what God gives you as a challenge. As a matter of fact out of the people I gathered, only 10 % of them decided to attend my classes. "what a poignant" :-/
During this 2 weeks I managed to start my work, hence, I began my teaching with 5 people at the beginning, I was mediocre enough to jump-off this process, defacto I hadn't had adequate experience on that. I tried my best to be an exemplary teacher as much as I could, I had students from different sources, some of them were children yet and some of them already grown men and women. However I thought that this is going to be a new journey to learn something significant and hone my skills much more better than they were "specially on English"
As long as I'm concerned teaching is a pragmatic process of sharpening your skills and the abilities you work on to burgeon.
Actually I never thought that I could fail on my work but whenever you fail it does mean that you are not adroit enough to master this area, which means you should work on yourself again and again. By telling of the candor I'm able to say I didn't give up on my poised objective so I perpetuated gathering people until I reach the target that I had intended on.

Finally the day came! (28.08.2011)

I went to the testing center which is located in the heart of Tashkent. Test had to begin at 9 am, so I was a bit earlier because I didn't want to be tardy for the first time. While I was waiting for the administrator I met couple korean and russian girls who were also waiting for the officer. I had a very nice conversation with them, I tried to speak in english because I didn't want to be embarrassed when I face the speaking section. So I thought it would be sort of practice in order to be pragmatist for my first challenge.
Finally the administrator came, she introduced us how the official test organized and what we can do and what not to.
So, at the beginning of the test, I was not really excited or frustrated because I was quiet familiar with all direction  how they structured. Well, I was out of the hook, I did follow the direction, just started a reading section! The reading section lingered about 1 hour, after analyzing plethora of labyrinthine questions, I went upon to the listening part. When I was passing the listening section I felt lethargic to follow through, because that knotty reading passages were already made my mind languish. Since I had spent 2 hours on one chair my brain was about to burst out...
I didn't pay much attention to the questions on the listening part, due to the fact, languid brain can never accomplish something creditable.
After listening section we had 10 minutes break, I drank water and the girl whom I just acquainted with shared her cookies, 10 minutes later I went back to testing room, "again that exhausting challenge"
Speaking part wasn't that difficult but if we don't consider my confusion at the beginning on "independent task" I didn't expect that audience can be that audible while others start speaking though. (I forgot what I was speaking about, despite of the noise of audience) it was so frustrating especially when I forgot my talk in the middle of recording time, but it didn't last long, so I managed to make it better in another tasks.
I also managed on my writing section, but the topic was too abstruse on the integrated task, I didn't understand what I read and what I heard, however I tried my best to write whatever I did get...
Finally the test did over at about 2 pm , I went out with girl with lethargic mood but I encouraged them to "believe everything is going to be good" (ahh my wrong thoughts)
We exchanged our phone numbers and gone in our ways. I really had enjoyable time with them, at least I was happy where I could make good friends over there.

The day before "Test"

The day before my test I went to the beach where there is no one bothers or disturbs me with something that I was sick and tired to do about. I tried to get enough energy, talked to myself that everything is going to be fine, and pleaded that God to give me strength or ensconce me with something restorative for the reason to do my best on the test...
I was seized of enigmatic thoughts about doing what to do and what not to do. My ambiguity was almost about to kill me because when I was in the path of accomplishing something sacrosanct for my future, I wasn't really have to be uncertain of my actions. I'm telling it because it's very important to remember.   
(My heart says believe in yourself but my mind, you had to practice a lot) It was such onerous to choose one of them especially when I didn't have someone to get espouse. So, even I hadn't had adequate preparation on my task I chose to believe in myself with my finger crossed. As long as I'm concerned it was something that I was mediocre with. I'm telling it because believing in yourself where you haven't done something proven to believe, it doesn't worth to trust no matter how bright you are.

Awarding with Voucher!

While I was preparing for my poised objective, I received an email from American Embassy of Tashkent. According to their email, they could recommend voucher for students who have exemplary acuity on English language of different sources...
So, I applied to this process and I had a telephone call with one of consulers from an Embassy.
As good as I remember my first interview was not that creditable, due to the fact I had reprehensible mood in spite of my colleagues. Nevertheless in that period I erratically awarded with "voucher" card which gives the chance to pass TOEFL for free. It was so exciting and unpredictable for me. As I consider this fact as success, I didn't know that this experience also teaches me with something good that I can invest in my future. what do I mean by that is "the success that has been gained with no effort will never tastes as good as it is"
So I got the chance to pass this test for free.
I was credulous enough to believe that the first step had been passed successfully "only in my mind" because I didn't know that this delusion thought is not my success but failure.

The beginning of the Journey

My first experience of TOEFL had started at the beginning of August in 2011. In this time I was working at Pawnshop as a cashier, therefore I was about to quit my job for some several reasons! If you really want to concentrate on something which is worthwhile for your future, you will have to give up something else which has no major role in that period, if we don't talk about "time" of course!
I really had needed someone in order to help with my process, at the beginning I even didn't know how to register to TOEFL, I tried to ask some help of my friends, my friends' friends, whoever I found as significant and qualified on this task. Indeed I found most intelligent people who had started learning English when they were a child or just had mastered this language as they were an adult, unfortunately for the reason I had passion to succeed on my missions I couldn't find someone proper who could help me and coach me in a right way.  I used my little brother as my partner due to the fact he has got good ability of speaking English!
In that period I have tried to use my oral English as much as I could, sometimes if I had no one to talk with, I spoke to myself in order to not lose my speaking ability.
Fortunately I had some resources which had helped me a lot to get to know what sort of  test TOEFL is.
I found some online courses, online websites which could help me to practice some more: The one I used mostly this one: http://www.testden.com/challenge/login.asp#_jumpto 
So my preparation time lingered about 2 weeks, because after 2 weeks I had to take my first TOEFL exam.